29 February, 2008

Relationship - of - Love, Love - of - Relationship

In the first place, do we really understand the true n worthy meaning of Relationship?

This shit word or say phenomenon is the ridicule datum of all cause. We eventually (read normally) fall into the trap of three states of consciousness together. Viz. subconscious, present n future. They’re like the vectorial representation of three vectors heading in completely different direction. Theoretically they’ve only 120 ^ 0 (120 degree) of difference, but in reality they mean the total “life shift”. Now this means, hoping for the best, we reap the worst. But, according to me, this is normal. ‘coz it’s not you who ‘ve decided the datum or say the zero point. n for dat cause, our life is a mélange of hyper dogged confusion of relationships, created by this very nature. Emotions most ever an obstinate, is rightly said. You never know, when it came, n when u got trapped...but u ll definitely ll remain aware n confused, when u gonna leave it.

Emotion’s of relationship (read love) is often mixed with other feelings like guilty, obligation, non-loyalty, content, disgust, disgrace, (stimes prejudice) et al. And this, effectively roots us to lower grade of relationships, where expectations does not intersect. They form the citadel of tangents at spatial. Then, by the virtue of such cult’s it becomes too difficult to ponder on the definitions, dimensions or paradigms of true relationship; ’coz of personal investment(s) of non-called emotions & feelings. When we embarked for a true long-term relationship (m talking abt two opp. sex personals) we never know, when such cult got introduced somewhere in the mid-way. And then , they ‘ll never allow your to intersect the needs of the Relationship. Have your ever noticed that you reached at a certain critical stage—a point - beyond which you simply cannot fly in the name of having Relationship ?

I did.

It’s always there, we’re, at all times are showered (read wet) with horn’s of dilemma. Although, we never cry playing out our experiences. No doubt, very often, the answer to the next junction(s) is/are within us, and our desire to achieve those manifests remains unfolded n unturned. But when u achieve them (conditions do apply) you feel the wholeness & completeness within you. You understand the true worth of her/his.

m still despair…

At times, most loving word that we can utter in such condition to other person is “NO”, though you hate it the most. We grow in love - sometimes happily, sometimes painfully, sometimes gaining, sometimes loosing.
Why gaining? Hey, who said u’ve to loose a lot in love. n love is all abt loosing yourself….it’s all bullshit. This is true, only when u can c ur zenith, ur pinnacle...else all despair. We always grow in love, u grow nirvanically, u grow spiritually, u grow sympathically, u grow literally in all sense.

But still, ...at least at this very moment, I can’t sit thinking - I’m clear with all my Relationships. There’re lots of illusions which lingers n has got overloaded on my heart n mind, n hinders the clarity of Relationships (I can call it love). Though, the illusions I’ve for myself, in my take for her, carries an infinite explosion of affection for her & is a sure-shot a reflection of harmless, platonic - purity of love.

2 comments:

Keshi said...

** We grow in love - sometimes happily, sometimes painfully, sometimes gaining, sometimes loosing.

I so agree!

Keshi.

c'est la vie said...

@ keshi

Aah, m growing too.

thanks keshi.